I haven't blogged in awhile because my life has been a bit fluid lately. I had another post in mind but it's still finding its voice. it's a little more honest and scary so I've put it off. But I started to make an Instagram post about my friends who are buying a house and i kept writing and writing and writing and now we've got this one. Somewhere in the sands of make em up improv world the phrase "I've got your back." was created and improvisers all over the world say it to each other. We said it before every skinny improv show and it's a reminder that we will take care of each other out there while we make up the whole thing. Just like life. So I'm gonna tell you about my friends
So here's Matt and Amanda and me.
These are 2 of my best friends in the world. They bought a house and closed on it today. I get the honor of being the best man at their wedding. I'm so happy for them and how they give me the privilege of being a small part of their journey. They are my confidants and co shenigannators. They make me happy.
Being happy is weird. It's a new mindset for me. Especially being happy for other people. Dark Jeff would have been jealous that his home and similar path was gone. Dark Jeff would have been angry. Dark Jeff would have lashed out. Dark Jeff would have self sabotaged any small inkling of good in his life just because Dark Jeff didn't know how to process any good in his life. Dark Jeff would have used his active little mind to find new ways to hurt himself. Dark Jeff was a jerk. I'm glad he's gone. I tried to think of a clever little name for this happy thing I've got going on, but nothing clicked. No biggie because now that Dark Jeff is gone I get to celebrate all the good that happens to my friends. I have great friends. The best friends. On my visionquest over the last few years as I've searched, scrambled, scavenged, and sought I always came back to the support system that my friend group gave me. I'm older than them but it's all good. They take care of papaw. It takes a village with me sometimes and weird things just seem to happen to me. Just odd strange things. Yeah. I do stupid stuff and make some questionable choices but then sometimes the universe just throws me a curveball and eh, wheels come off. That's cool. I can handle it because of friendships like these two hooligans and so many others that are in my life. You should meet all of my friends. They make me better and I'm happy to do what I can to help them. Maybe you can meet my amazing friends when my birthday rolls around in a couple months. People ask me to describe my friend group. Well. I guess I can try.
They are horrible garbage people. (That's a term of endearment btw) they perfect? No. Who is? They're kind. Funny. Successful in a ton of different fields. They're good looking. Weirdos. Intelligent. And a bunch of rabble rousers who make me happy. Just want to say thanks to my friends for being in my life. You know who you are. Again I find myself trying to be a clever little writer and turn a phrase or whatever it is. But it would be disingenuous to try to do more. So I'll borrow from ole Billy Shakespeare...
Us few, us happy few, us band of brothers.
Thank you friends. Despite my innate ability to do as much damage to myself as possible you guys have seen who I can be and helped me to find myself again. I'm not perfect, never will be. Thanks for putting up with my mood swings, darkness, my roguish charm, all the bits, so many bits, stupid jokes, sunset to sunrise, dumb accents, endless calls from Katy Perry, me calling corporate, did i mention bits?, my voice of an angel, being the best male dancer in my friend group, coming to my shows, stealing the grail, supporting my craft, and other assorted incidents of tom foolery. I've got your back. And I hope I've made your lives better on some level. Now let's go have fun and find some great stories to tell. Here are some pics of my friends. A couple of important people for some reason I don't have pics of or lost when I transferred phones. No disrespect intended. Let's just take a pic together.
jeff Jenkins is an award winning comedian, actor, writer, producer and director and writes about how improv comedy helps him in his ongoing battle with depression and living his best improvised life.